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You deserve the whole loaf

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With honey butter.

I used to convince myself that I was happy in relationships where I really wasn’t. I told myself that wanting more was asking too much. That the scraps I was given were enough—if I just tried harder, stayed complaisant, didn’t demand things.

I remember being with someone who didn’t want the same things I wanted, and instead of honoring my own truth, I contorted myself into someone I thought he would want. I told myself I was fine. That this was love.

But it wasn’t. It was me abandoning myself for the sake of keeping the relationship.

We do this in all kinds of ways—not just in romantic relationships.
We mistrust ourselves.
We minimize our needs.
We shrink our voices.
We edit our desires to stay connected, to stay approved of, to stay “safe.”

The thing is, the relationship that suffers most when we do this is the one we have with ourselves.

We stop listening to our gut.
We override our knowing.
We become strangers to our own needs and wholeness, chasing crumbs of validation while starving for the fullness of self-trust.

And over time, that internal erosion leaves us disconnected—not just from others, but from our true and full selves.

The turning point, for me, was realizing:
I don’t want crumbs.
 I want the whole loaf.
And more than that—I deserve it.

Not because I proved myself worthy.
Not because someone else finally said I was.
But because I decided to stop abandoning myself and start trusting what I want, what I feel, and what is true for me.

Because staying in a relationship—whether romantic, professional, or even familial—shouldn’t come at the cost of losing you.

Your Turn:

  • Is there a place in your life where you’re settling for crumbs?
  • What might change if you trusted your desires instead of downplaying them?
  • What would self-loyalty look like in that area of your life?
  • See the poem I wrote here about deserving the whole loaf.

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How to enjoy being you

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It’s a practice.

What does enjoying “being you” look like?

When we don’t like ourselves, it’s hard to enjoy being ourselves. But sometimes we don’t even realize we don’t like ourselves—until we notice how often we’re getting frustrated and upset with ourselves.

This might look like quickly overcommitting to things. Staying up late rethinking what we said.  Trying to be the perfect version of ourselves wherever we are.

This isn’t a flaw. It’s a signal. These are clues pointing us back to the part of us that’s still trying to earn belonging.

A client once shared this with me:

She had just finished a long workday when a friend texted asking for help on something she’d procrastinated on. My client’s instinct was to say No. She was exhausted.

But what came out was, “Of course! No problem.”
Then she stayed up past midnight trying to finish both her friend’s request and her own to-do list.

The next day she felt tired and irritated—and really, disappointed in herself.

We explored it together and underneath the resentment wasn’t just over-giving. It was the belief: If I say no, she might not like me.
And beneath that: I don’t feel like I’m enough as I am.

When we don’t like ourselves, it shows up in these quiet ways. But that doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with us. It just means we’ve learned to measure our worth by how others respond to us.

That’s why liking yourself is a practice. It’s not a personality trait, something you either have or don’t have.

It’s something you build—the same way you would a relationship. Because it’s your relationship with yourself.
We practice with presence, with care, with forgiveness. And maybe even a little humor.

We don’t have to wait until we’ve “fixed” ourselves to start liking ourselves.
We just have to be willing to have our own back. No matter what.

And like any practice, we get better by doing it.

Your Turn:

  • What’s one way you notice yourself hustling for approval?
  • What’s something you appreciate about who you are right now—without changing a thing?
  • How can you practice having your own back this week?

Where does the past live?

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In our mind, only.

The first time I heard that forgiveness is “giving up the hope that the past could have been any different,” it resonated with me deeply. Something just made sense about that. 

Oprah Winfrey expands on this by saying in the book What Happened to You?, “Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different, but we cannot move forward if we’re still holding onto the pain of that past and wishing it was something else.”

How often do we replay painful moments in our minds, wishing they had gone differently? We hold onto the past as if clinging to it will somehow change it. But the past isn’t something that exists outside of us—it only lives in our minds, in the thoughts we continue to revisit, in the stories we tell ourselves about the past.

It’s not the past itself that creates our pain. It’s the way we THINK about it.

Every time we recall a painful memory, we relive it in the present. Our body might tense up. Our emotions associated with that story rise. The hurt resurfaces as if it’s happening all over again. But it isn’t. The only thing happening is that we’re thinking about what happened. And those thoughts and the painful story are creating our suffering.

This isn’t about denying what happened. It’s about recognizing that right now, in this moment, we have a choice. We can keep carrying the weight of an unchangeable past and the story we have about it, or we can release it. We can stop arguing with what was and begin giving ourselves the care, love, and peace we want now. This is an option that’s available to us.

Forgiveness isn’t about excusing what happened. It’s about freeing ourselves from the pain of our stories about the past.

Your turn:
What painful story have you been holding onto? How does thinking about it make you feel? What if you chose to loosen your grip—just a little? What might open up for you if you allowed yourself to move forward or tell the story of the past in a different way?

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No more people-pleasing

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Now what?

When we begin the work of letting go of people-pleasing, it can feel like everything is shifting.

For so long, acceptance and connection may have looked like being agreeable, accommodating, pleasant, helpful, easy to get along with. We may have shaped ourselves around what others needed or expected. We became the supportive friend, the reliable colleague, the one who didn’t rock the boat.

And underneath all of that was the quiet hope: If I can be who they want me to be, then I’ll be accepted. Then I’ll belong. Then I’ll be loved.

But people-pleasing is not the same as genuine acceptance or connection. It’s performance masquerading as intimacy. It’s self-abandonment in the name of belonging. And at some point, we realize that the cost is too high.

We realize that we’ve been offering curated versions of ourselves in exchange for “acceptance” or “connection.” But “acceptance” by others of curated versions of ourselves – is that really the acceptance or true connection we want?  

So what do acceptance and connection look like now, in this next phase, post-people-pleasing?

It looks like showing up as your full self, not just the “palatable” parts.
It looks like being honest about your needs, your limits, your preferences.
It looks like saying “no” without over-explaining or justifying.
It looks like letting go of the idea that you have to manage other people’s emotions in order to feel safe in relationship.

And yes—this might feel strange and uncomfortable at first. We might worry that we’re being selfish, or “too much,” or not “nice enough.” That’s normal. We’re unlearning patterns that were reinforced for a long time.

But as we keep choosing honesty over false harmony, self-respect over self-sacrifice, we’ll notice something: our relationships begin to shift. Some will fall away. Some will deepen. And new ones will emerge—ones rooted in mutual authenticity, not some performance.

True connection doesn’t require us to stay small. It invites us to expand. It welcomes all of who we are.

Your turn:

  • In what ways have you curated yourself to maintain acceptance or connection?
  • What does authentic acceptance and connection feel like to you now?
  • What are you willing to let go of in order to experience more aligned relationships?

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I did this to myself

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What a packed schedule :/

Does it ever seem like your schedule is running you instead of the other way around? The other day, I found myself feeling overwhelmed—back-to-back meetings, no time to breathe, and frustration creeping in. And then I realized: I did this to myself.

In the past, I used to pack my schedule so tightly that I was constantly rushing, feeling anxious, and even getting irritated at people walking too slowly in front of me on the street. It wasn’t just about the logistics—it was the mental exhaustion of always being on and never feeling like I had enough time. I blamed my schedule, but in reality, I was the one choosing it.

Now, when I plan my schedule, I can ask myself some simple questions:

  1. Do I actually need to say yes to this?
  2. Am I giving myself enough space to transition between tasks?
  3. If I’m saying yes to this, what am I saying no to? (Rest, exercise, peace of mind?)

By checking in with myself first, I can make more intentional choices—whether that’s adding a buffer before a meeting, saying no to a last-minute reschedule, or planning recovery time after a packed day.

Another thing to consider is why we are saying yes to something. It might be out of obligation or to stave off a conflict with someone or to prevent ourselves from feeling guilty. Whatever the reason, do we like our reason? If so, that’s great. If not, we may want to reconsider or remember that we can choose something else, and like our reason for choosing that instead.

It’s not just about avoiding burnout; it’s about designing a schedule that supports us, rather than drains us. When we’re mindful of our choices, even a busy day feels more manageable—because we get to be in charge of it.

Your Turn:

  • How do you want to recover after an intense day or week?
  • Even if your schedule isn’t always within your control, how can you design it to work for you instead of against you?
  • What’s one small shift you can make this week to support yourself when you have a packed day?

Is it a problem?

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It doesn’t have to be.

Our brains are wired to spot danger—it’s how we’ve survived for thousands of years. But sometimes, that instinct works too well. We turn neutral situations into problems, even when no real threat exists.

Something only becomes a problem when we decide it is.

And once we do? We start overanalyzing, “fixing,” and stressing—making it feel even more like a problem.

Take trouble sleeping. Is it actually a problem? Not until we tell ourselves it is. We lie there thinking:
🛑 Ugh, I have to wake up early.
🛑 If I don’t fall asleep soon, tomorrow will be ruined.
🛑 Why does this always happen to me?

That frustration creates tension, making sleep even harder. But what if we thought:
💭 I’ll fall asleep when I do. My body will get what it needs.

Less stress. Less pressure. More ease.

We can ask this same question in so many areas of life:

  • What if feeling sad about this outcome isn’t a problem?
  • What if waking up in the middle of the night isn’t a problem?
  • What if what that person said isn’t a problem?
  • What if the number on the scale isn’t a problem?
  • What if missing him isn’t a problem?
  • What if her anxiety isn’t a problem?

This isn’t to say that nothing should be a problem. This is to remind us that HOW we are thinking about something can make it seem like a problem. WE are creating the problem with our THINKING. 

We can remember that all of our thoughts are choices. And we can choose our thoughts on purpose. 

When we stop labeling things as “problems,” we create space for acceptance. And paradoxically, that’s what makes real change possible.

Because if the number on the scale isn’t a problem, maybe we’d actually make healthier choices from a place of self-care instead of self-criticism.
If waking up at night isn’t a problem, maybe we’d relax enough to fall back asleep.
If missing him isn’t a problem, we’d allow the feeling without letting it hold us back.

So, what if it’s not a problem? What if there’s nothing to fix?

Your turn: What have you been making a problem? What if it’s not? What would you think instead? What would you do instead?

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Why you aren’t taking action

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It’s about feelings.

Everything we do is because we want to feel a certain way. Every goal we chase, every decision we make—it’s all about the feeling we think we’ll get (or avoid).

Remember: Our feelings don’t come from our circumstances. They come from our thoughts about those circumstances.

And since our feelings drive our actions—and our actions create our results—our thoughts are shaping everything in our lives.

Do you want different results? Then you need to think different thoughts.

For example:

🚫 You decline a big opportunity, not because you can’t do it, but because you fear failure and want to avoid feeling dejected. The current thought might be, “I’m not sure I’m up to the task.” A different thought that creates a new feeling could be, “I’m willing to see what I’m made of.”

🤐 You don’t share your opinion in a meeting, not because it’s not valuable, but because you feel nervous, thinking, I don’t want to look stupid. A different thought could be, “It’s important for them to hear various perspectives.” And that creates a different feeling, like determination.

💔 You disconnect from your partner, not because you want distance, but because you feel hurt, thinking, They should want to spend more time with me. A different thought could be, “I want them to know how I really feel about this, even if it’s hard.”

See the pattern? Our thoughts fuel our feelings, our feelings drive our actions, and our actions create our results—sometimes, if we’re not careful, our thoughts can create the exact opposite of what we truly want.

So if you don’t like your results, start with your thoughts.

Your turn: What feelings are fueling your actions? What actions are those feelings driving? And are they creating the results you actually want?

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None of your business?

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What’s yours is yours.

Have you ever found yourself stressing about someone else’s choices? Maybe a friend is making decisions you don’t agree with, or you’re worried about the way your partner is handling a situation with a colleague. Or perhaps you’re caught up in something bigger—like the state of the economy or what the weather will be like next week.

It’s exhausting, isn’t it?

I learned a concept from Byron Katie that helped me untangle what often became a mental mess. She offers a powerful framework that explains there are three types of business:

  • God’s business: Things beyond human control, like the weather or natural disasters.
  • Their business: Other people’s thoughts, feelings, and actions/decisions.
  • My business: Your own thoughts, feelings, and actions/decisions—the one realm where you truly have power.

When we’re caught up in “God’s business” or “their business,” we disconnect from ourselves. We avoid looking at what’s really going on in our lives and miss the opportunity to make meaningful changes.

Why do we do this? It can be easier to fixate on what others are doing or what’s out of our control than to face our own fears, desires, or responsibilities. But when we do this, it’s a recipe for anxiety, frustration, and feeling stuck because we’re trying to control things that are not ours to control.

The good news is that we don’t have to stay there.

We can get back into our business by:

  • Pausing and reflecting: “Whose business am I in right now? Is this mine to control?”
  • Shifting our focus inward: Instead of ruminating on others, think about what you can do today to feel more empowered.

I love what Byron Katie has on her website:

Ask yourself: “Am I in their business? Did they ask me for my advice?” And more importantly, “Can I take the advice I am offering and apply it to my life?”

Staying in our own business can be one of the most freeing things we can do. When we stop trying to control what isn’t ours, we reclaim energy for what is—our goals, our relationships, and our peace of mind.

Your turn: Where in your life are you caught up in someone else’s business, and how is it affecting you? What’s one area of your business that you’ve been neglecting or avoiding? How might your life feel different if you focused only on what you can control?

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Being angry is easier?

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Anger vs. Grief.

Something that’s come up recently with my clients is the topic of grief and the feeling of anger that can be associated with grief. 

Have you noticed that anger can seem “easier” to feel than grief? When this happens, we’re actually distracting ourselves from feeling grief by feeling angry about the situation instead.

I’ve felt this in my own life, especially when going through the loss of a relationship. Rather than facing the sadness of losing someone I cared about, I’d find myself focusing on how they wronged me, how unfair the situation was, how it wasn’t supposed to be like this. Anger gave me something to focus on and a sense of control, like I could’ve done something to prevent the outcome, while grief felt overwhelming and out of control.

But here’s the thing: anger and grief are very connected. When we choose to feel anger, it’s often shielding us from the vulnerability of feeling grief. Anger can be like a protective layer over our sadness, pain, and loss. It can be an easier emotion to lean into, but when we stop there, we miss the deeper healing that comes from acknowledging and processing our grief.

Grief allows us to honor what was lost—whether it’s a person, a relationship, or an unmet hope. When we make space for grief, we open ourselves to healing. It doesn’t mean we’re excusing the hurt or pretending it didn’t matter; it means we’re courageous enough to feel it all. And also courageous enough to then do the work of finding acceptance and moving forward, no matter how long that might take. Feelings don’t have a timeframe–even though we may want them to. They will be there as long as they’ll be there, to allow us to experience what we need to learn and take away from it.

Your turn: When have you turned to anger instead of allowing yourself to grieve? What might happen if you allowed space for both emotions? And how can you show compassion to yourself during this process?

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Regulating yourself

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Self-care starts in your mind.

From my clients, I’ve surmised that many of us wonder why self-care feels so hard to engage in sometimes. We know WHAT to do—eat well, rest, move our body, take time for ourselves—but life seems to keep getting in the way.

When our nervous system is in “survival mode” (fight, flight, or freeze), it’s very challenging to prioritize ourselves. Chronic stress keeps our brain and body in overdrive, making even small acts of care feel overwhelming. When we feel stuck in a cycle of stress, overwhelm, or self-doubt, self-care feels hard to prioritize.

Our nervous system responds not just to external stressors but also to our thoughts. Fearful, negative, or chaotic thinking can keep us in “fight or flight” mode, making it hard to focus, relax, or care for ourselves.

The good news? We can calm our nervous system with our thoughts.

Here are two things to recognize and try:

Negative Thoughts Are Optional:

  • When we notice a stressful thought, we can ask, “What’s another way to think about this?”
  • Example: Instead of “I’m failing at self-care,” we can choose to think “I’m learning what works for me, one step at a time.”

Affirmations Change Our Perspective:

  • We can choose to think affirming phrases like “I am safe,” “I can handle this,” or “I can figure this out.”
  • Say them out loud, write them down, or repeat them in your mind throughout the day.

When we can consciously shift our thinking, we signal to our brain that we’re safe. This activates the parasympathetic nervous system, the part of our body responsible for rest, digestion, and recovery. 

A large part of self-care is knowing how to regulate our nervous system. And then, with a regulated nervous system, we are more ready to show up for ourselves so that self-care becomes something we WANT to do, not something we “should” do.

Your turn: How can you be more intentional with your thoughts today? In what other ways do you naturally calm your own nervous system? Are you open to seeing how a regulated nervous system supports you in living your life differently? I’d love to hear any insights you have.

I talk more about how to be intentional with your thoughts in my program Tools to Change Your Life. Check it out here!

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